Lately, I have been receiving a lot of lemons in life (lol). It's been miserable. I'm not joking, it is true. Life gave me lemons when I actually wanted some grapes. Well, at least it's a good thing that I didn't get any durian (i hate durian)(please laugh here).

But nah I will make the lemon into lemonade. Chill.

Have you ever imagined if you were born different? Like, you were born in a really poor family or you were born in a really rich family. You were born as an illegitimate good for nothing child which no one wants or maybe as a really nice and talented child that everyone loves and envies you at the same time.

Lately I've been thinking, what if I were born with a different situation. Like different parents, different environment, different friends and even different God. I would absolutely become a really different person. Maybe I would become the cute and caring hard-working girl everyone adores (laugh) not this ungrateful curious girl who talk sarcasm. Maybe I would become a strong believer of different God not this doubtful yet trying to believe believer of her current God.

People said, it's fate. It's destiny. It's God's best scenario. But, what if it is not? What if it's actually just some random possibilities that no one planned and just coincidentally meets?

To be honest, I don't really like those kind of words, fate--destiny. It may be romantic but don't them make your efforts seem worthless?

Have you ever been so eager about your dream, you even planned for everything and suddenly something really evil happen? I have. I did. For me the evil was money.

Money is evil,
Money is evil,
Money is evil.

Now, the evil is binding me again from getting what I want. More like, it prohibits me to dream. Maybe I shouldn't dream anymore.